Category Archives: contrarian

knock, knock

“down the rabbit hole”

these photos are so dark.  it’s just dark here.  maybe if the sun comes out i will try again tomorrow.
she shifted.  morphed.

stands still
still going slow and steady.
[knock, knock Neo]


rippling out

parts of her are stitched down now

[continuing the recording of my thoughts]
the process here has been easy.  fluid.  steady.
not too much wavering or over-thinking going on.
i’ve stitched when i can.
i set it down easily.  and i pick it up easily.
it feels like detachment maybe?
maybe since she was not born with that invisible cast of guilt upon her, that underlying ‘struggle’ is gone.
the birth process.  the incubation phase was done in my inner world.  where my time is given it’s correct value. a moment taken to daydream is a valid moment there.

hmmm…  more to think on.


[8:45a – 9:32a]  looking for cloth, ripped or cut, partially pinned exactly what i saw imagined
[9:34 – 9:40]  thought maybe she should be standing on some snow…  found white cloth, ripped and pinned
[9:50 – 10:07] photos, chose and downloaded
—  total about an hour or so

hmmm…  this is the first time i’ve ever recorded time spent.  and this was QUICK for me.   wow.  i have to think on this.

it was very enjoyable to just get to it.  i was worried that it was going to be rushing mechanized thing, but it wasn’t.  it was just very calm, straightforward, organized and non-confusing(?).

i need to think and write more here later.


i tried it.  i did it.  i imagined the process of putting together :contrarian: in my mind.  and i fell asleep in the process.  2 hour nap.  hahahahahha  but i saw the fabrics, the techniques, the stitches.
now i will try to stitch it together as i saw it later on tonight.  hopefully.

first day

shadows.  [light/dark]

[lack of space for stitching area and solitude/a solution.]
pre-stitching with pen and paper?
mentally stitching a cloth together.   not just a simple idea sketch, but doing as much as i can do before pulling out the cloth and thread.
i will try.

a holdout in the darkness